got once got twice

will it continue to have forth, fifth?

or even weekly?

what should i do?

what answer should i give?

do i regret?

i really dunno

had lunch with hubby just now

super full~

didn't finish my food

no appetite i think ):

feeling sad after he left

didn't really see his face

don't know how to face him when we kiss goodbye

cause i know i'm sad ='(

only see his back view when he walking back to his class

later won't be able to see him too

my php is almost done

tired, sad, headache

maybe taking a rest first before faci approach me

no one pei me to interchange later ):

cherlyn driving today and she's going work later

kelly's bf driving her home

the rest should be meeting friends

Hubby later must enjoy your MJ o

must win k?

remember to take your dinner and go home early

don worry bout me

i'm fine and will find things to do

remember to text me and miss me ><

loves~ muacks!

12 Nov 2009
Thursday

life still goes on

i didn't go think much about it

anyways their plans change to today

slept super late last night with hubby

couldn't sleep as mind is still thinking something else

but my hubby pat me till i fall asleep *sweet* =D

today will be alone after school

cherlyn can't accompany me as she has to work =(

gonna find something to keep myself occupied

so that time will pass faster

today is thursday and i'm in school

only attended 1 lesson of today's module

must try not to pon class le

php lesson, very lost

dunno what to do

my team also cmi

all like doing own things and dunno how to do

later having php UT

heard faci say its gonna be hard

one word to say... DIE~

okay i will stop here

gonna go struggle with my php codings

ciao~

10 Nov 2009
Tuesday (:

after taking afternoon nap

woke up saw hubby's hp de sms

i don't know what feeling i have

don't know how to react to it

so i acted i didn't see anything

but hubby asked me about it

i don't know how to reply nor do i know how to answer his ques

i just keep say i don't know

asked him a few questions

and i don't think i should say a NO

cause this is the second time he told me he really feel like going

i know my answer would be a NO if he really want me to answer

think awhile about it

since he wanted to go, i agree to it

its his freedom, i can't always keep him by my side

but if is his buddy ask him out, i would say a yes

keep thinking about it when going home...

sometimes we have to give in

although i know i would be sad/unhappy

but if this little give in can bring me long term happiness

i wouldn't mind

i won't always expect a return for every give in

cause you will not know what will happen after it

it might bring you disappointments

1/2 days unhappiness of me can exchange his happiness

i wouldn't mind but i don't think i can do it all the times

okay i will stop here for now

not going to say out too much (:

i won't expect much

just want to have your

accompany,attention, care, love...

happiness of ours <3

I need you, Hubby ='(

ytd went to JP cut hair with love

my hair now is short (:

had breakfast at long john silver

yummy~~~

in class today

super tired

having HTML lesson

today change team

minah, natalie and another 2malays

things don't change overnight

but i believe it will get better after some time

2nd Nov 2009
Is Something Missing?

today isn't a very good day for me

connection sucks to the hell

all thanks to my brother

keep downloading movies and never think of others

play games lag till nothing to say

keep dc too

dc from game is not i want

i also can't do anything to prevent it

if there is i will definitely go do it

since last weekends, everything seems to change

temper, relationship, mood

i dunno, just feel something is missing

i don't like the situation now between us

i'm afraid something bad will happen to us

our temper aren't good this few days too

maybe is because i affected you to be in this way ?

i don't know

i really hate you when you get piss off

sometimes i feel like pissing off too

but i hold back cause i don wan any quarrel happen between us

hope everything will be over soon and back to normal
just wanna say no matter what happen between us
i still love you the most <3